Happy Birthday Allee!

Today is Allee's birthday. She's my oldest daughter, and is 21 today. I haven't seen her in 2 1/2 years. The last time she was at my house, she robbed it. Besides the stuff she took that she could get money for, she also took some very sentimental things. She took all my pictures of her off the walls. It was like she was trying to erase herself from my life. But I still carry her love notes in my purse, and her memory in my heart. I miss Allee so much it hurts. I would give anything to have her back.

Allee, if you happen upon this, please know that I love you. You have a place always in my heart and soul. I hope you are well, and happy, and that some day you'll come home.
Love always,
mom

My Birthday:

Your Birthdate: November 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world. You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm. Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche. Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done. Your strength: Your inner peace Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds Your power color: Emerald Your power symbol: Leaf Your power month: November

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Allee's Birthday:

Your Birthdate: February 15

You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things. You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle. Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home. You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak. Your strength: Your intense optimism Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents Your power color: Jade Your power symbol: Flower Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I Wish There Were Another Way

But I Don't Know What Else to Do...

Annie started developing a facial tick. At first, I thought it was due to allergies because it involved her nose. If you told her to stop, she would. It's been going on for quite a while actually. And the poor kid, I didn't know it was a side effect of her medicine, Risperdone. I kept telling her to go blow her nose. Then when we were at the doc to evaluate we found out it was from the medicine.

We took her off the Risperdone. The doc wanted to see how she'd do with no meds before we tried something new. Oh my. Looking back at how she was when we started putting her on meds a few years ago, I saw her go back to the same irradict behavior over night. It is constant, and there is nothing to say or do to make it stop. She's irrational, and snaps instantly. She's much more moody and sensitive, and goes from happy to raging in the blink of an eye. It makes me wonder how we would have survived if they had not convinced me to try her on meds in the first place. Seeing this now, it makes me feel like we've been living in a dream world.

So the doc is going to have to try a new med for her. I don't know yet what it will be. I just think it's such a sad world where we have little kids on meds just so they can get through the day. Getting through a whole life takes counseling, constant supervision, and probably never really having true independence. If only her birth mother could understand what those drinks she had during pregnancy did to this beautiful little girl! People who drink or use drugs of any sort should have to face some sort of charges for the damage they are doing to these precious little people. It just makes you want to cry!

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